Hide and seek

I never really liked hide and seek... I was always afraid noone would want to find me...pretty sad, but true. One of the big root lies I have battled with in my life is that I am forgettable...

Maybe that's why I like the Nat King Cole song so much... Because the day I discovered this was not the truth was a truly freeing moment to me...

So why am I sharing this? Because as a mom, as a wife, as a person we spend much of our day doing ordinary, mundane things...or if you are me you spend the day procrastinating them! 

Laundry, vacuuming, wiping down fingerprint covered walls...planning meals, thinking about friends you wish you could see...all of this takes place, but who notices? Does it matter? 

Does it matter if you eat right...no one notices anyway? Does it matter is you exercise? No one will notice...if I clean up this Barbie doll accessory explosion... Will anyone care?

The short answer... Yes!

The longer answer Yes! 

So why don't we feel it? For me it's my root lie...it was whispered to me as a child in a broken moment...

for you it could have happened somewhere else.

We often spend our life trying to convince this lie it's not true... But the truth is you CANT convince a lie it's not true...

WHAT?

Yes you can't...

So what do you do? You reject it, instead of letting it reject you! You renounce it by accepting the truth...you replace it with the truth...

SURRENDER...

The hardest part about this? For me personally it's letting the lie go. We get comfortable with it...it's a great scape goat when we struggle...

But you were made for more... You were made for freedom... We were not created to be slaves, but to be free! As it says in scripture...where the Spirit of The Lord is... There is Freedom...

And you may be broken. You may have lived your life believing a lie. But you are NOT forgettable, replaceable, or invisible. 

One day in the Kitchen after cleaning the millionth toy explosion of the day I yelled out.."does anyone see or care what I do?" 

And in the small quiet inner chamber of my heart I heard a small voice say in a big way. "I do" " I see you". 

That day I realized I am not forgettable...because the fact that I walk, live , breath, and love is because I am remembered every moment and loved ...

Do I live this perfectly... Sadly , no. But I'm a fighter... And I have hope... Which I want to share with you...

So if this is something you struggle with... If you want to know you are loved and remembered...than I am here to tell you today...

You are!!!!!

What you do matters...who you are matters...how you love matters.... So do the best you can... And strive for Freedom!