A year ago...

It's hard to believe that a year ago the hubs and I decided to get Insanity as a Christmas gift to us...we were going to get in the best shape of our lives....I was going to fit into my clothes again...he was going to kickstart his training again...

The day it arrived, we ripped it open, put in the fit test and hit the ground running...literally...

Running, jumping, mountain climbing, switch kicking... And then for me throwing up...(I hope that wasn't too much information!)

So it was going to be harder than I thought... 

We traveled at Christmas and decided to start over in January...you know, New Years Resolutions?

I have to laugh now...because I remember the workouts with my kids on the floor doing mountain climbers with us...we looked insane! But we started a journey!

Today I look back and smile...as crazy as it was that was a stepping stone that got me moving in a great direction!

It's the holidays...the season of giving, of parties, of celebration. For me it has been a time of mixed emotion. 

Joy celebrated in my family. Little stresses carried from my past. All these things led to emotional eating, negative self thought, downward spiraling of stress...

January's resolutions were my chance to try again. But my inner perfectionist would never let enough be enough... 

Until I started...pushing myself past my comfort zone, asking myself why I wanted to change, praying for the grace to surrender the lies, and being ok with not always being ok. 

A year ago I was taking a big step that has gotten me here. Where is here?

Here is a place where I let myself be real when things are tough. 

Here is the place where "joy and sorrow can sit at the same table". 

Here is a place if healing and freedom especially with the emotional eating and negative self thought. 

Here is a place of healing in the present moment...

And it all started with insanity...not so much the program... Rather the idea...I was going to change my body so that I would feel better...

But the funny thing is my heart changed first... Because I let go of the fears, I found a support system that walks with me through the struggles, and I stepped out of my comfort zone to share with others in the hope that I might offer them the same opportunity to find freedom.

It's a daily surrender... Not to change who we are... Rather to let go if all our lies that others have told us, or that we have told ourselves...and find freedom in the truth. The truth in knowing we are a gift...our life is a gift ....and what we do with it is meant to be an offering to the giver...

Where are you in your journey? Are you trapped in the comfort zone? Are you afraid to step out? My prayer for you is that you take that step... You make that leap... That is where the freedom is!