It starts with 4 steps...then 8...and soon running....
I think this event touches a deeper part in every human heart...one worth reflecting on...
Yesterday I shared about the need to let the infection out. To face those fears and hurts that we often bury deep inside.
Yet once we let it out are we automatically better? Sometimes...but not usually...we have to take
BABY STEPS!
I am incredibly impatient. Although we have a very busy life, and 5 busy children...I feel very impatient. I want to snap my fingers like Mary Poppins and have the house clean itself...
I want to twitch my nose and rewind the attitude my 9 year old is giving me and have her redo it with grace and manners...
I want to close my eyes and open them to find my to do list...done!
I want to put my running shoes on for the first time in 2 months and run a 10k and feel fantastic!
I want to have a baby and go home and put on my pre-pregnancy pants...
When you are impatient its usually to mask something. A desire that is good partnered with a fear or anxiety that is bad.
What is the good? I want a clean and orderly house, I want my children to have good manners, I want to have time to do the little things I enjoy, I want to be fit & healthy, I want to feel beautiful inside and out...
What is the bad...I am afraid of losing control and the house imploding, I am afraid my daughter will grow up rude and entitled, I am afraid I will never have time to do things I enjoy, I am afraid to take the time to train for the race...what if I fail...what if I never get my figure back?
WOW...pretty complicate stuff? So then I take out my stack of self help books....
I put my coffee cup on top of them and use them as a coaster... ( I don't need to help myself...that is what starts the whole mess)
Instead...I close my eyes and I say...
"Lord what is really going on?"
Then (holding back the urge to answer my own question...) I wait.....for the TRUTH....
Sometimes whispered in our hearts, sometimes popped in our mind through the words someone had shared with us, or....
sometimes walking towards me in his adorable excitement as he crosses the room smiling at his accomplishments taking Baby steps...
Baby Steps...
First Listen and hear the truth...You are loved, You are safe, You are worthy, You are gift...
then
Believe, Thank, and Enjoy this moment of grace....
Finally....
Ask for help to clean and organize the house...and be satisfied that at times it will not be perfect because it is lived in...
Take a deep breath , ask for the grace and check yourself, then you will be teaching your little ones and trust in your love for them...
Open your eyes..make a reasonable to do list...only 5 things you have to do....(dinner, dishes, laundry, a chore) and then make 2 for fun....(play with the kids a board game...build with leggos...watch a movie with the hubs)
Stick with a program...train reasonably, join an accountability group, run with a buddy, share your successes and struggles...FINISH THE RACE...
Look at your little one...that is a LIFE...YOU DID THAT (with some supernatural help!) Hold onto that baby and be patient as your body heals and you nourish this new life...you are beautiful as you are...and every time you go through this you don't return back to the way you were physically or spiritually...you are stronger and more beautiful!!!
In order to let the healing take place it takes BABY steps...and take joy in them...
Its fine to challenge yourself....but work hard to accomplish the challenge...and find a support to lean on and tell you GREAT JOB!
Can you imagine if when my baby took his first 4 steps and we all cheered he looked at us and said "why are you cheering? I only made it 4 steps...you guys walk all over the place?"
"Be Not Afraid"....
Surrender the Lie...
Ask for the Truth....
Embrace it & Be Embraced...
Share it...
And watch yourself do great things!
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